How true is that for us when we reject Him again and again?
It is something I apparently can’t learn enough,
because I am constantly struggling through what it means
to surrender,
to die to self,
to sacrifice my life and my desires for His.
I am selfish. I am prideful.
But oh am I thankful for His patience with me.
He is so patient.
Oh, but he is jealous.
‘Or do you think that the Scripture says in vain,
“The Spirit who dwells in us yearns jealously”?
But, He gives more grace.’*
He is too good to us.
Shouldn’t that be enough?
Let Your love be enough, oh my Lord.
How can the King of the Heavens
not satisfy the longing within my heart?
You say: submit, and we bow to you.
But only until our knees bruise.
You say: resist him, and he will flee.
Yet we peer out from behind your ankles,
and dance with sin hand in hand.
You say: follow me.
We happily tip-toe in the easy wake of your steps,
but with cowardice upon us,
turn back as the tide rolls in.
Cleanse our hands, we are sinners.
Purify our hearts – we have such double-minds.
Teach us patience.
Let us seek You with all our hearts,
let nothing take Your place in our lives.
*James 4:5-6a
